sometimes happened.

assalamualaikum.
because i just feel down too much and didn't to whom i want to talk. me would not spoil my friend happiness to hear my talk. let them be happy they deserve so on me. but sometimes i just feel like i'am too terrible, jerk and so on. when it become about heart it's was hurt too much. i just tired, yes tired about everything. even i'am said i on the way to be the new me but the old one still there, still inside myself. how i wish i can restart my life and fix all my wrong. how wish i can rotate the time. and all that become wishes.
i'am busy myself doing something so i will ignore about my feeling. but it just temporary not all the time i can ignore it. i just pity with people around me. sorry, if you can stand with me you will wait. if you don't, there someone else out there deserve for you. because i also don't know what i feel. i'am just afraid because of my past had taught me everything. when me seeing someone else happy with their mate i'am just wish they will have a long lasting relationship.
i'am just wish onedays my heart will open back for the true ppl. i'am lonely sometimes. i'am miss the memories sometimes. too miss. thank you for the past that make me happy before this. give me experience and so on. my situation right now i don't know if i'am waiting for someone or i'am really become heartless. i just miss my memories that i created before. too miss.
" if you that i miss, i'am just pray that we will be like before "
so, i'am done and sorry for the grammar i'am just used the broken english.
thanks reading.
thank you.